Fear Of Tomorrow

I want to fight it, but I don't even know how or what it is.

Author: Dushime Yabes

A lot of time,

Maybe a little too much of it;

I want to fight it,

But I didn't even know how or what it is,

Until I learnt I could tell you all,

- And this is the only way I know how to,

What would you do when this feeling arose?

When you start to feel like everything is so lousy,

And you're the church mouse but,

Can't even hide in the near old house,

Or that you won't be able to give the best to your spouse?

- What could you do?

Where could you go at such a time?

When your lines can no longer rhyme,

Yet you still feel the neurons down the spine;

And it's so hard to tell what reigns,

Or that there will be anymore rain,

To wash away all the pain and leave no stains,

- How would you go about it?

If it's not shame,

Then probably there's one to blame;

You tell all this to yourself and still,

Ask if it could be a curse,

A phenomenon that has no theorem?

It just can't be all this,

- Why can't I go about it then?

Stuck in my own cage;

I can't find my punching bag;

To at least relieve my rage,

Not just because of the no longer awaited wage,

But this threatening bondage,

- When shall it leave me alone?

Not only does it disturb me,

But it also drains me,

I wouldn't imagine for the less privileged than me;

Yet it still leaves me complaining,

Instead of being thankful,

- Where's my attitude about it ?

I try to smile,

But it takes no more than a while;

To go back to this kind of lifestyle,

Where no one sends me a single file,

Yet a letter from my future self;

That my success will always be seen in a mile,

- Who shall help me reach there?

Knowing that you're all I need,

Gives me hope that I will live,

Even though I am always on leave,

You never cut me off like a dry leaf,

And although I'm always this deaf;

Make me listen to your voice just one more time,

- It is what I need to silence my fear of tomorrow.